When I look back on this year, only one word comes to mind: fun.
I just wanted to enjoy life this year and I really did. I made the decision not to wait around for friends to join me to do things I wanted to do. I just went for it, and it was the best thing I could have done for myself.
A lot of my friends don’t like and/or have the time to do things I enjoy doing. I spent a lot of 2013 being bored, dissatisfied and unhappy with how I was spending my free time. At the end of 2013, I was basically unhappy and unfulfilled. The thought of spending another 365 days in the same way was unthinkable. So I changed.
The result? I have new friends, beautiful memories and more confidence than I did last year. I’m beginning to own who I am and be proud of that. To not care who laughs at me or looks down at me and just do what I want to do. It’s freeing.
- Bungee jumping off the Bridge to Nowhere
- Outsidelands Music Festival // San Francisco
- Life Is Beautiful Festival
- Renewing my Disneyland pass
- Getting more involved at Reality
- Seeing Kaskade
- HARD Day of the Dead weekend
- Surviving another Fair: weddings, drama, hotel parties, animals, parades, concerts, giveaways and all
- Seeing Yellowcard finally at Vans Warped Tour
- Seeing one of my best friends get married // being a part of that
- Palm Springs for bachelorette party :)
- VEGAS — all of it
- Thanksgiving in Santa Barbara, as always
- KROQ Almost Acoustic Christmas
- Reconciling with two very close friends
- Hikes with my family
- Taking my sister to Six Flags for the first time
- Petting a wallaby (yes… it was that awesome)
- Meeting Joseph Vincent at the O.C. Fair <3
- Going to my first Lakers game… in Hyde Lounge
- Wine nights with my girls
- Carving pumpkins… hah
- Deeper appreciation of family
Looking back, I know that 2014 was amazing. I still feel the highs each memory brings me.
But it also ended on a sad note; my grandma (Bachan) passed away unexpectedly in mid-December. It’s the first time I’ve experienced sudden loss and it’s taken my whole family for a whirl. I wish I could say we are spending Christmas in a whirl of pretty lights, laughter, hot chocolate and great memories but the truth is, we are mourning and we are sad. We are still spending time with family and we still laugh, but our hearts just aren’t into it. Christmas is almost non-existent to me. Sure I went to the work holiday parties and helped decorate the house but really? Truly?
It’s the last thing on my mind, even now on Christmas Eve.
I’m already looking forward to 2015 and just want to put this month behind me. I’m tired of the holidays; my heart isn’t in it. And even though 2014 was beautiful through and through, losing Bachan? It puts a grey veil over every other thing that has happened. I’m ready to say goodbye to 2014. It was a great year, and then it ended.
Peace out, 2014. I hope 2015 is a good one.